I'm so sick of hanging out with children. With the exception of my closest friends - who they themselves seem to be slowly slipping into madness and self-loathing (The godawful FEAR that grips us all) - I am beset on all sides by the impudent irresponsibility of people far, far too young - physically or mentally - to be dabbling with these substances.
And it sucks. Because I get lumped in the same basket. They're all my friends, but they're not all people I'd invite to my house - Because they'd probably get trashed and break shit.
And when other people - People I want to know and respect me, people I want to talk to and learn from - See me hanging with 'em, I automatically become someone you wouldn't invite round to your house.
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Breathe in that brisk chill deeply...
ahhh...
The FEAR.
You're not exempt. (You exempted yourself - possibly subconciously - "who they... [...] ...- I seem ..." )
I wouldn't invite you to my house.
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Get out of Perth.
;)
..and yet you are so readily willing to discount and ignore your own immaturity. Intelligence does not necessarily equal superiority.
Compare the things you do or have done, and the ways you have or have not acted, before you feel disparagement towards these 'children' who you so willingly befriended.
You're a teenager too, far below the realms of maturity, and just like the rest of the teenage population you believe strongly that you are the mature one.
When you get a car, get a job, get a house, finish your uni, start paying bills and the like, then you can say you're above us. Until then, suck it up. People like to have fun, people like to get messy. Even the most composed and intelligent people have their moments.
We are all in the same basket.
I feel your pain, I am in the same boat, age has nothing to do with it, teenager or not people are fucks no matter how old you are. It's funny to see these douchebags run their mouths though. Children indeed.
I never stated that I believed that blog was directed at me, I was merely explaining that you are not exempt from that group.
It's fine that you no longer enjoy my company,
it's fine that you don't think I'm mature enough to use psychedelics responsibly,
it's fine regretting introducing me to them.
But don't you dare tell me what I should not be doing[if I want to get trashed and silly for fun once in a while I should have the god damn right to do so without getting aggro from people],
and don't lecture me on responsible substance use... you aren't exactly the king of it.
Maybe take the time to hang out with me, or atleast talk to me and see where I'm at in life -before- judging my actions, and deciding[and telling me] that I've gone down the drain.
It's not like you've actually taken the time to speak to me outside of the occasional party for more than about 5 minutes any time in the last month or so.
Lastly;
'I'm still not going to make a total fucking fool of myself and bomb school because I wanted to go and get high.'
No you're going to flunk uni because you are too busy selling drugs and chasing women.
Also.
Don't make assumptions that all I ever do every day is get fucked up and irresponsible, based on the fact that you only ever see me at parties now.
Don't tell me I shouldn't drink - knowing full well, I've been drunk 4 times in the last 5 months.
Don't tell me the reason you regret ever introducing me to psychedellics is because I'm 'irresponsible with them'. When I haven't had any psys for about a month and a half because
I'm taking a break [HEH BEING RESPONSIBLE NEGRO].
And don't tell me I'm irresponsible with substances full stop.
OH YEAH BECAUSE I'M THE ONE WHO ATE SO MANY PILLS THAT I STARTED VOMITTING BLOOD AND THEN CLAIMED THAT I DIDN"T KNOW WHY I EAT THEM ANYWAY BECAUSE THEY DON'T REALLY DO ANYTHING!
No, I'm the fucking one, who is loathe to even touch pills because I care about my health more than the high.
I'm not saying I'm responsible.
I'm just saying I'm not as irresponsible as you think.
Care about me my ass.
I know it's physically damaging.
Hence doing it very rarely.
Well I'm sorry if some of your actions contradict your stance on harm minimalisation.
Same goes to you.
Get back to uni.
Stop focusing on being hxc, and selling and grow up.
I don't know how you people manage to notice these things when you don't even talk to me.
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